dear chris martin:
thank you for being the calming voice there to soothe me when i wake from nightmares.
i really, really needed a good cry.
let it all out baby-
no one will come looking for you anyways.
i am starting to crave constant darkness.
in the classroom and in my head.
the light from the hallway is okay-
it's the flourescence that makes my stomach churn.
do you ever want the world to just shut down entirely until you recuperate?
let's sleep through it all and wake up together.
dear jason:
everything was just an illusion,
and now you've got a lovely new assistant to prove it.
at least you turned out nicer than i originally thought.
give me time to cool off and close the book on you-
"'cause each broken heart will eventually mend"
i wanted so badly to hug you today...but i was afraid i wouldn't let go.
my dog is the only person i will call baby from now on.
i walk into my room and he's just there on my bed,
"hey baby. how are you?"
lifts his head and wags his tail to acknowledge my presence and flops back down.
i love him for it.
Dear Carl,
i love every single inch of you.
there is something that ignites in me when i see you;
it makes me feel this crazy warmth that i've never felt before.
honest it tears me up inside to know that i will never have you for my own, and even if i do, it will be a better illusion than anything houdini could dream of.
if ever you catch me looking in your eyes with a look of admiration-
i'm thinking about how lucky I am to know you,
and wondering just what it was i did to deserve you.
"he wonders aloud why feelings so strong make the body so weak"
