id call it an update but there's no one who cares this time around. been thinking lately. why is it so easy for me to open up to strangers or anonymously but when it comes to crying in front of family or friends i have to hold it all in? maybe because i'll never see the strangers again but with my friends i don't want to let them see me as i really am. dependent and always caring what people say about me. ha, i should probably cross 'be a rockstar' off my list.
also i noticed im much less anal with spelling/grammar/punctuation here. normally it pisses me off when people can't spell or whatever but here i kindof want to let my thoughts come out without being hindered by commas and i before e's.
i'm trying to deny it but i want you so bad.
so bad.
